double deception

1.
gold notebook
=ruined my life,
just > a year ago
1.
shirt
that wasn't mine
~!age sixteen driving suicide note scribbles
onto napkins at family dinner

(the actor laughs when interviewed,
his words will end up in photographs
for the next few months.)

/about the same
convincing changed & i
remark
`would have done it all,
didn`t know how to do much'

now late
early
20.

(local band writes songs about cheeseburgers
and falling asleep on the subway)